I should really write a book because no one would believe the lunacy in my life. This past week they have decided that my body was rejecting the morphine from the pain pump besides it has donew  little for the pain, my legs filled with water almost up to my knees and they turned a   lovely shade of campbells tomatoe soup! So yesterday they tell me today they are going to drain it and put in delaudid. OK, I have has that before, not real great for pain, but what choice do I have left? So they drain the pump, but the tube that goes to my spine still has all the morphine which would take 5 days to finish running thru. So they decide to open the pump full way, let 1/2 go thru, then cut 2nd half with saline, noe she tells me you might pass out, but don't woryy you'll be fine- yea, right then my heart is beating out of my chest, ok I am going now! Well I wish Ihad passed out, it was the worst 15 miutes ever. so high was hakkucinating, dripping wet, heart bursting, couldn't talk, finally it slowed down, I was like ok, you are still here.  Think the worst was over- oh no, no. She forgot she left the pump opened full ways and when she put in new meds, about 5 minutes, I 'm like, hey guys there is something very wring here, like my whole right side is pparalized!!!! I mean you could have taken a butcher knife and sliced me from my ribs to my toes and I would not have felt a thing. Of course she says, ok, lets slow it down a little, maybe it's going to fast-gee you think? So Doc got really pissed at her, made me close my eyes and stuck me with pins all over and had no clue. I have to say with all the things I have been thru in my life, including being a cancer surviver, that was the most petrified moment in my life, to actually be totally paralized for 11/2 hours before it slowly started to taper off. Of course she played it off like, well just think of getting a heavy dose of novacaine.  All I have to say is these new meds sure better work because I will not gothru this again. I would rather have the pump removed. I am SO sick of Dr,'s after this the only wat you will get me to one is if I am unconscious. If anyone knows someone with one of these pumps I would love to talk to them, so if you do, please contact me.

thanksHope you all have a better week end than me!!!

Anna