|
candalishus
|
Candice Rosser
View My photos
|
"I make mistakes, I am OUT OF CONTROL and @ times HARD TO HANDLE. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you SURE AS HELL don't deserve me @ my BEST!"
27 years old
Location: Mckinney
Views: 1901
Last Login: 6/14/2009
Candice has 2 votes! |
|
...Welcome to Candyland... |
Name: Candice Renae aka Candalishus
Birthday: August 4, 1984
Birthplace: Colorado Springs, Colo
Current Location: In the ♥ of Tx
Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Color: sandy brown
Height: 5'0
Right Handed or Left Handed: lefty
Your Heritage: Indian and Creole
Your Weakness: Boyz
Your Fears: Letting myself down
Thoughts First Waking Up: Blaze One
Your Best Physical Feature: My smile
Do you Smoke: yes
Do you Swear: yes
Have you Been in Love: Hmm...
Do you want to get Married: someday
|
|
|
I love to dance,dance,dance I said! |
|
|
| Candice's Interests
|
TV Shows:
Any C.S. I. shows! |
|
|
|
how to love... |
uesday, November 06, 2007
How to love...
Current mood: drained
Category: Life
How do you love someone else if you never been shown love yourself? This is a question that has left me dumb- founded for years up intil recently. Before I go any futher you have to love your self first...and in the good words of Repaul" How hel are you going to love somebody else when you don't even love yourself?'' Just take a minute to think about that...Hmm, thats some deep shit right there! I can't speak for anyone else,but myself ok. Most of my life I grew up with out my real father around. Shit, I didn't even know who he was intil I was 9 and to be quit honest I wish I would have never found out, but it is what it is. Now, on the flip side I've had a step-daddy who's raised me since I was 2wks old, even though he was around he was never there for me. I was always fighting for someones love! I was to young to comprehend what It was I was feeling or truely looking for. Its kinda hard to look for something when you don't know what your looking for, huh!?! I didn't come from a very affectionate family either so as I got older I gave up on seeking love thru my family also because I was raped and molested for yrs.I turned away from ppl and keep to myself cause thats all I've ever had was Me, Myself, and I. I was confused as hell to be honest, but I know I WANTED TO BE LOVED! I started to look for love in all the wrong places. Shit, I didn't care how it was recieved as long as I felt wanted and loved I was ok, but in all honesty it wasn't the love I deserved. I was being used and abused in some relations. Then one day I came to realize that the one thing I had being looking for all my life was within me! It took many years to get it right, but I had to love myself first before I could ever attempt to love someone other then myself. Now, being I didn't know what love was or how to love someone I had my trails and errors like anyone else cause I'm not perfect. I will say this though as children we watch our parents(if they are around) and rather we want to or not carry on their traits and habits. Rather they are healthy or bad its human nature to do what you see. Its up to you to decide! I'd give anything to know what it felt like to be daddys lil girl or having my father as my first love, but those weren't the cards dealt to me so I turned to men like most young girls do. I ain't saying its right or wrong yet this is real shit that goes on in life.If you don't love yourself how do you except someone else to love you when you don't love yourself? That's when ppl will except anything as love cause they don't know better or haven't been shown different. it's 23yrs later and I can truely say that it all makes since to me now, ha! So to anyone who has ever tried loving me or loved me and I didn't return the love back...I'm apologizing from the bottom of my heart! On that note let me leave by saying that " Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want to be loved doesn't mean they don't love you @ all." But don't subject yourself to anything that comes along cause its filling some void- You could be hurting yourself more then you already have been...How to love is by loving yourself first,smoochz!
|
|
| Featured Photos
|
| No photos selected to be featured yet. | |
|
SEARCH
